"Adventure" vs. Longevity
09/14/2012 05:43 p.m.


I'm not where I thought I would be in life, and I'm missing some of the foundations I meant to build for myself. I think it's about longevity....jobs, relationships, the community where a person establishes a presence. Other than relationships with most of my core, blood related family, I have not had success with longevity, and I think, as a result, this is what I'm feeling today.

Just for the record, it was always my intention...

So, you younger generations, make a note of it (if it seems helpful and relevant) and don't take longevity for granted. Remember that, in order for longevity to mean something, you have to stick with it. I'm not saying to beat your head against the wall of something that is clearly a miserable experience. But sometimes, a "for better or worse" type of commitment (that applies to more than marriage) means that it's not all going to be easy-breezy.

I do know that I've not been "abandoned" by the Universe for this state of being...I believe that God and my "angels" still love me just as much as ever, and that my life continues to be divinely guided and full of the lessons I agreed to learn while living this life.

Clearly, longevity is something valued by this society. We showcase it on our resumes when we apply for jobs. We hold bigger and bigger celebrations for our "anniversaries" - years with a company, wedding anniversaries, birthdays. Apparently, I didn't see longevity as anything particularly special in this life, given the places I've been and the relationships I've experienced. I'm wondering now about the trade: adventure vs. longevity. I've "let go" so many times that I wonder now if it wasn't all running away. I've joked about being a vagabond in the past, not realizing the flip-side of that coin speaks to my ability to stick with....well....anything.

I do know that my life has value....to me anyway.

But in the end, I'm wondering if longevity and I still have a chance at being affiliated.

P.S. Pathetic is currently the closest experience I have with longevity - nearly 9 years here.


I am currently: pondering the idea that omission is still a form of lying
Listening to: my kitten's purr