Little uphill part of the path
11/30/2011 09:51 a.m.

Just over 24 hours until Carla's surgery. I have mixed feelings. I wish she didn't have to have it done. I wish she hadn't signed a DNR, but I respect her decision to do so. I wish her younger girls would grow up and figure it out, for they have a mother full of light and love and attitude who would lay down and die for them if the situation called for it. And when the situation doesn't call for it, she's loyal and loving and fair, and those are precious gifts, even if they do come from your own mother.

I am loving being with Carla and Steven. They are a hoot together, and the way they care for me is such an amazing experience. I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams. It's one of those situations where the love just exponentially increases as it flows out, floods back in, and then flows back out again. I know, bordering on a puke bucket moment, but I can't help it....it's THAT good here.

I'm not saying there aren't flaws in the fabric. Nothing bears that sort of impeccable and intolerable perfection, anywhere.

I was called this morning for an interview at The American Red Cross. A very demanding job, heading out every week for potentially different drive locations all over Kansas and northern Oklahoma, gone for a 5-day week at a time in a hotel, and home on the weekends. I wouldn't have considered it before, but now, I guess I'm available. The wage is really good, and the benefits are amazingly good, and in this economy, it would be a huge blessing! We'll see how it turns out :) Exciting. Sooooo exciting!

Oh, and this weekend, a friend of Carla's and Steven's is coming to visit, and I'm really looking forward to it! I guess they've known him for over a year and half. He friended me on facebook a few weeks ago, and we've had some very interesting conversations about 5D earth, and ascension, and 2012, and poetry, and music, and all sorts of things!! This should be fun! That is, of course, if he can be stolen away from the bromance he and Steven sport in gaming and hulu. Heheh!!

Ok, it's late, and my night owl self is finally feeling sleepy.

I am currently: peaceful
Listening to: The Wandering Madman