You took those questions right out of my mouth and with the same conclusion!Ali,I think of it as a test and one that is very hard to pass.Be strong, for you are only in a weak moment that you will overcome because your WILL is that strong. Try to get some rest my friend.

I wish I could answer this for you, however, I can't. What I can say, though, is that I know you'll not only just make it through, but prosper. *HUGS*

Ali...you get me. *hugs

True destiny? Too many Cinderella stories at bedtime as a child? I personally don't believe in true destiny. I believe people are human and life is difficult. Life or people rarely if never live up to those expectations cause we create unrealistic should-be fantasies in our heads. Sometimes life hands us a bad card but God gives us our mind and heart to turn it into something better. Sometimes it's difficult to see, I know cause I have sang this same song myself far too many times. Sometimes I think just accepting life isn't fair is the kindest thing we can do for ourselves. I just read a inspiring book called "Feeling Good" by David Burns. You might want to give it a read it helped me some with identifying my feelings and thoughts and how I could better manage them. I have struggled with life lately myself and I can so identify with the part when you say you are tired. Life is hard but hang in there you can do it.

It gets better. It might take a long time before it does, but trust me when I say, it does.