Detachment
06/09/2011 06:26 a.m.

In the end, it's all about attachments, isn't it? Every struggle, every desire, every change, all based on what I'm most attached to. Is the right answer for me, today, to practice detachment?

But then, am I already doing what I'm supposed to be doing? Is my life perfect right where it is? It's hard for me to accept that, today, right in this moment, I may already be walking the divine path for my life. It isn't that it's coming on the wings of some tomorrow (that never gets here, by the way). It's HERE, NOW, as it always has been, as it always will be. Yet, even as I type these words, they feel like fiction. Therefore, they are.

It seems like the missing link would be FEELING the truth of these words. I'm missing the mark, somewhere. I must be, or I would feel differently, wouldn't I? Do I not feel the truth because somewhere in the depths of my ridiculous psyche, I don't want to? Is it because I can't handle the truth of who I really am, or what I'm supposed to be doing? Is it because it's not about feeling at all?

I think I've always believed what I FEEL. Well, that would explain alot of the absurdity that is my life. Isn't it the epitome of foolish to base my decisions and my actions on feeling? Yikes.

I'm praying, with all of the depth and sincerity and honest seeking in me, that God (or my higher self or my guides or destiny or whatever it's called) will allow me to experience my life in whatever ways will help me grow to my best potential, so that I can be a positive contributor to the universe at large.

Yes, I know, a little nauseating, perhaps - but it's truly what I want.

I am currently: the only human in this structure
Listening to: the zoo