bathroom thinking
03/14/2011 04:49 p.m.
Today while bathrooming (a more polite term , in my opinion, than "using the bathroom") I was thinking. Part of my thinking was me telling a story to an imaginary audience, or writing an imaginary story down. I tell all the backstory to myself and make it dramatic. For kicks.

Anyhow. I was bathrooming today and thinking about how when I was 16 I felt so mature. And then at 20 realized that actually, no, I had no clue. But at 20, okay NOW I have things figured out. And now at almost 24 I'm thinking, HA! 20? what did I know at 20?? I hadn't even lived on my own for a year!

So today it occurred to me that when I am however old I will have so much wisdom, and life experience, and all the 16 year olds, and 20 year olds and 24 year olds will not want my information. Because they will have to figure it out on their own to truly appreciate it. A touch-the-hot-stove type of situation.

It scares me today to think about how unaware I am of so many things. Because I remember the feeling of clarity when I realized how it felt to hear people talk about miscarriages. Or low-income families. Or even how I felt last Friday when I compared how I wanted people to treat a little friend I have at work who is ESL, and off to kindergarten eventually to how I treated an ESL student when I was in kindergarten.

Today I feel scared and intimidated by life. But I'm sure when I'm 28 this day will make more sense.
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to the kitties "bathrooming"