A new direction, a fresh breath of hope...
10/30/2010 08:57 a.m.

So, I prayed, REALLY prayed....let go of my situation, refocused my intentions toward release, and the next morning, my oldest son, Joe, who lives in Astoria, OR, sent me a message that said, "You know, we have a room for you here, and you can bring Keefer."

And the relief feels like the freshest air I've breathed in a long time. While I am prepared to deal with whatever challenges my ego may face in accepting this kindness from one of my children, I am also entirely certain of the Universe's hand in this opportunity to bond with Joe and Trey and Tamara (my daughter in law).

Now, onto wrapping things up here in The Dalles....

I visited the ear/nose/throat doc today to try and get to the bottom of why I keep going deaf in my right ear. He discovered an infection BEHIND the ear drum, probably an extension of my chronic nasal infection, and so he's cultured it and will order the appropriate antibiotic on Monday. I can't believe how many times I've needed antibiotics this year (around 6 times, I think). That's just way too much. But when everything settles down, I KNOW my immune system will improve!

If all goes as planned, I'll be making the move to Astoria after Adam returns to the UK and I'll be settling in during the first part of December. The one possible alteration to the plan is whether or not the changes in my neck will ONLY be improved with surgery. I don't sense a surgery in my immediate future, and usually my "sense" about these things is pretty accurate and may even shape my own healing. I'm ready to get on with my life, and focus on self care for a bit.

Adam and I have talked at length about our future, and our plan is to take things slow, and allow our life together to develop naturally as time goes on. We are each at points where we feel like it'll be good to focus on ourselves, individually, while still maintaining the connection we've made while he's been here. I like that plan very much.

I feel so grateful to my friends and family, everyone who's prayed for me, and all the amazing support I've received.

I am currently: grateful
Listening to: my two favorite creatures snoring nearby. Heh.