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The Journal of Matthew Sharp wishing on empty
05/09/2010 07:30 p.m.
i wish i was as sure as you, and how the look on your faces show your ego convinced how right you are all the time...
its like i can warn people to stay away from me because im not what you kept convincing yourself i am, and then ill get talked into being friends because i love people so much.
Eye/I couldnt possibly say no to them forever...and then when its all said in done and you realize that you shouldve never gotten close to me or me close to you, you totally forget that i didnt want to be in that position in the first place...
The ego will make you bitter and hateful instead of compassionate realizing that imperfection is the compromise you where warned not to make.....
I hate thaT you hate me and it burns and i deserve it...
i deserve to die....
i wonder if we all deserve to die....
i guess we dont but that wont stop me from wondering....
i just think its sad that when people get mad at other people they find happiness in their failure and pain...
there is no way to apologize for being a thoughtless improviser and making mistakes losing faith in my instincts....
let the lost stay lost....
because if you dont, you will lose the 'found' or 'inner peace'.....
of course i dont make sense unless your poetic or thoughtful or whatever adjective your state of mind satisfies you with best....
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