Out of the OLD.......
02/10/2010 07:09 a.m.
OMG....finally out of the old house for good. Let go of a lot of stuff. But I was able to bless some people, too.

I can't believe how much harder it's become to walk away from things as I age...dreams and hopes and, just, material stuff. I know it's not stuff that has value, but what that "stuff" represented. My entire time with Miah was in that house. My kids left home from that house...In some ways, I feel like I failed, that I couldn't keep Meme and I there. But that isn't helpful, or even necessarily true. I'm just making a mental note that the feeling is there.

It was sooooo hard, going through old things and bringing up old memories, and having to let go of some things anew. It was strange.

And some people don't look at things the way I do, and didn't understand my tears or my sense of loss. I had to make the final trip over there, to gather the last of the remnants of what I needed from that life, by myself. It's fitting really. It's the way things are lately. The economy of streamlining my emotions.

Well, off to take a bath, and wash the rest of what I'm feeling down the drain.

I am currently: ready to breathe a little easier
Listening to: the quiet of our newer, cozier home