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01/29/2010 12:09 p.m.
it would appear i've been extremely lax in revising my works on this site. i should probably update a few things since re-reading the older versions results in some painful wincing.

on an unrelated note, have you ever reached a state where you were happy? not uber everything is always great and walk around with an idiot smile all day every day type happy, just happy as in there's a rose-tinted layer to your overall emotional makeup most of the time that never goes away. ppl who grew up in "happy" homes probably don't even realize that layer exists...

the problem being in my particular case, the problems don't go away just cuz i'm happy. and sometimes i'm not so sure how to go about with adjusting those issues without undermining/sabotaging/destroying that layer of happiness. thing is, i'm pretty sure that if i don't find an effective way of confronting issues, that layer is going to wear thin.

there are just some things that need to be faced anyway. how to go about it in a constructive fashion is something else again.
I am currently Reflective

This is an interesting comment. These are not the best of times in more than one way and I find probably for the first time in my life that I understand what I can and can't do financially. I'm nearly convinced that I could live under a bridge if necessary but I don't think my wife could. I'm at the age where I can say I may not have all that many years, or months, or even days left. Not that I'm in the worst of health conditions but medication is not cheap and it keeps going up. In any case I refuse to get depressed about it. I see you are from Michigan. I was born there and lived there until I was in my mid 20's. Take care lady and good luck!