Things sometimes feel they will never turn out as we would like. But then if we don't try there is nothing to hope for and hope is really all any of us have. So much more than we think in live is really a matter of chance. As hurt as I have been I consider myself to be one of the lucky ones. I grew up watch "Snow White", and "Carousel" and other romantic stories and wondered if mine would ever turn out like they did. Not so but then I've still been so lucky just to know the sky, the mountains, the ocean, etc. I have few friends and that is my fault, as I can only be friends with those willing to open themselves up as I am but it never is easy and there is always a chance of being hurt. But that is part living too as painful as it might be. Keep on going lady. Take care, george