Summer 2009
09/08/2009 01:06 a.m.

Well, I ended the summer with a trip to Astoria to visit my son, Joe and his wife Tamara and my grandson, Atreyu! It was a wondeful week, and it was GREAT to be with them. My daughter in law is a really good cook, and I really appreciated how she made vegetarian meals for me!!

Atreyu is getting so big! He's very tall and lean, and took ONE step on his own while I was there. He's ALMOST talking, with real phrases peeking through the baby babble every now and again. I can't believe he'll be a year old next month!

When I got in the car to leave this morning, I turned the key only to hear the sickening "click, click, click" of a battery with no juice! And my son was supposed to be on his way to work, but he rescued me instead by going to the store and getting some jumper cables. I am so grateful that he loves me so much!!!

It was nice to get home. Everyone missed me, and that's always a good feeling to come home to!

In other news, I had a really unpleasant experience with a guy who'd emailed me a couple of months ago. Apparently he'd forgotten that he didn't like me. When he remembered that I was too heavy for his taste and that I had other issues, he was pretty hurtful and shallow and rude. Jerk. It made me remember part of why I'm not interested in dating.

Speaking of not being interested in dating, I still love him. I still cry when I miss him. I still dream about him; he's still the first thing I think of in the morning and often the last thing I think of as I drift off to sleep, and I don't do it on purpose! But I do still wish things could have worked out. God help me.

In even OTHER news, I got some lab test results back today, and my A1c (a test that measures what a person's blood sugar has been over the last few months) is NORMAL!!! YAY!!! So, the diet changes and exercising and supplements I've been taking are paying off!!! I know I feel a whole lot better now physically than I have in a long time. Now, for my next act, I'd like to show my bicycling skills!!!

Tomorrow I'll take the bicycle to the bike shop to have it tuned up and new innertubes put in, and I'll start looking for decent bike riding attire for chubby girls...lol. We don't want any undue skin irritation keeping me from my goals!! I have a friend, Greig, who has been nice enough to offer to bike with me now and again, and to sort of be my moral support if I'll be his. Apparently he's lost quite a bit of weight over the last couple of years, AND is diabetic too, so being supportive to one another should definitely help!

In the meantime (oh no, not the meantime ... lol) I'm not sure if I should take classes this term. Meme and I still need to move, and I'm not sure I can juggle caring for her, moving AND school. Ack. Decisions...

I wish I could say that I'd manifested the $.5 million I was imagining would set Meme and I nicely up, but since it hasn't happened yet, I know there is a good reason and I know that whatever comes will be just fine. After being in Astoria all week, I sort of wish we could have made that happen on some levels, too. It was SO nice to be with Joe and Tamara and Atreyu! And he's growing up so fast, I don't want to miss any of it!!! And I could be such a help there, too. Again, I know there must be a reason. I am relieved in some ways that we're not moving away from what's familiar to me.

Well, it seems the only thing to do is just keep going forward with what's in front of me, and that's plenty to keep me busy for the moment! The only thing I'm not really doing that I'd like to do more is get to the temple! I'll be working on that...

I am currently: mostly glad to be home
Listening to: the happy sound of my grandmother's TV blaring...lol!