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The Journal of Alison McKenzie Curious
05/27/2009 05:35 p.m.
I find it curious, the way I feel lately. Unattached.
Had a strange experience in energy work last week, and since then, I've been feeling a bit "off" emotionally. "Off" in both senses - a bit off as in not awake, and off as in off-center. I found myself suddenly disconnected from the possibilities of the new relationship, and haven't been able to reconnect since then. I was thinking it might be transient, but so far the excitement I felt at first has not returned. I feel only the gratitude for what the experience brought in terms of growth. In a very short time, I experienced a huge leap in growth.
Interestingly, I do not feel "off" spiritually. I feel as connected to my spiritual journey as ever. During the energy work, I was visited in vision by two avatars of Vishnu. Very interesting stuff.
Jeremiah is leaving town for good, this weekend, going on to visit his family and then on to explore some more of his spiritual path. I'm glad on his behalf, that he's found some purpose in whatever he's doing next. I am still sad in many ways to see that affiliation leave my life. I'm sorry that we didn't accomplish more together in terms of the growth we'd hoped to experience together. But I'm glad that, in the end, we found a gentle, loving way to float away from one another.
I visited my son and his wife, this last weekend, to help get the old apartment cleaned out and to get them all moved over to their first house. Of course, Kate was there with her new boyfriend, Ryan; Jess was there and so was Amanda. I had four of my six children all together in one place, and I was able to help, and cuddle with Atreyu too! It was a WONDERFUL time! I can't wait to go back and be with them some more!
It looks as if Meme and I will be staying in town, and moving into a smaller place that my aunt from Arizona owns. We're just waiting for the old tenants to move, and then we'll be moving in - so, sometime between now and the beginning of August.
I'm taking two classes this summer - Speech and Intro to Psychology. Summer term is short, only 8 weeks. I think I might change my major, to something more in humanities than business, but gosh, I just don't know what I want to be when I grow up yet! LOL.
Life is funny, the twists and turns, and the connections to the people I love. Life is sweet, and I'm loving just about every minute.
I am currently: feeling sort of strange.
Listening to: my myspace playlist.
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| Posted by Quinn Vokes on 05/28/09 at 02:31 PM "...in the end, we found a gentle, loving way to float from one another..."
While it may be tempting to say that you wish you had more time (as almost always is said in any kind of relationship), it seems as though you are on the right path now. Or at least, a path that is keeping you strong and healthy.
While I do not know the particulars here, you have always seemed a strong, independent woman who will persevere through life (because damn it, life is just too amazing to give up).
I wish you luck and happiness in this area of your life.
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| Posted by Quinn Vokes on 05/28/09 at 02:31 PM "...in the end, we found a gentle, loving way to float from one another..."
While it may be tempting to say that you wish you had more time (as almost always is said in any kind of relationship), it seems as though you are on the right path now. Or at least, a path that is keeping you strong and healthy.
While I do not know the particulars here, you have always seemed a strong, independent woman who will persevere through life (because damn it, life is just too amazing to give up).
I wish you luck and happiness in this area of your life.
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