stepping into the stream that becomes a river.
04/20/2009 03:50 a.m.
in the next few weeks, months, and three years, I will be embarking on a journey.


I will be attending grad school at the dell'arte school of physical theatre in california. it is the only specifically dell'arte/physical theatre in the world (dell'arte being an old form of performance dating back to the italian Renaissance. and physical theatre being in line, with, as example, cirque du soleil) as well as according to the pamphlet only accepts like 12 people a year into the program.


i am from grand forks, North dakota. While I have been to New York, minneapolis, washington DC, and other places culturally far different than my own within the US, moving permanently to a coast is freaking me out.


I know i will do fine. the work is going to be exciting, and exhausting. but i have always thrived on my ability to work hard.

but for the first time in my life, i am at a point where i will be entering a road where i do not know where i will end up at the end of the journey. I am planning, mostly,
that with an MFA i could teach at a university while doing local theatre, and that will make me life long happy.

but the wife and i (she is going to be starting law school at the same time and finishing at the same time) could just as easily end up slipping into our respective fields and finding great success and then the possibilities are endless.




sigh. i love potential, and right now there is so much potential in my future i'm bursting at the seams.


but it is also like stepping out on stage with another actor whom you can trust enough that you can both give up everything you've "planned" in rehearsals, and just live on stage, and great things will happen that you could never plan for. and that is the most wonderful feeling, but the most nerve wrecking thing as well.