My sister is here from Kansas
04/04/2009 06:13 p.m.

Life certainly is busy all of a sudden! I picked up my sister from the airport yesterday, and we've been having a blast. She's still in bed, crazy girl!!! She has been having a tough time, and is finally, really sleeping for the first time in weeks! She's been asleep for nearly 12 hours, which is a switch from at home, where she's only been able to sleep in little fits of 2-3 hours at a time. Not that her home life is the problem...her husband is AWESOME. But I'm glad she's resting!

It seems like this term is going to be full of LOTS of homework!! I mean, the first week of the term, and already I'm slammed and doing HOURS of it! And no poetry class to have to write for, so I'm wondering how much inspiration I'll be able to find for poetry in here.

I'm taking Intro to Accounting (LOTS of homework in there!!!), Philosophy of Religion (seems like LOTS of homework in there, too), an online writing course (Writing 122) and an online 10-key class. It's funny - I LOVE crunching numbers in accounting, but I also love philosophy! I would LOVE to turn my love of philosophy into a career path, but I'm not sure if there is really a choice there that would suffice.

I'm still really missing Miah, but I find that, lately, if I see him, I just end up crying, so it's best if I don't see him. I really don't understand why he didn't move back to California. All his friends are there. Better jobs are there. Life in the sun is there!!!! At the same time, I miss him so much that I end up wanting to see him. The last time he came by to pick up his mail, he seemed to want to hang around, but I told him it would be better if he didn't. So he didn't. *sigh*

Three Valentine's ago, just before Jeremiah came, there was a man I'd been speaking to for well over a year - Paul. In February of 2007, just before Jeremiah came here from California, I got two Valentine cards - one from Jeremiah and one from Paul. The weird thing was....Paul and I ended up buying each other EXACTLY the same card, AND we'd both spent hours trying to find exactly the right one. But, Paul was encouraging me to explore things with Miah, because, he said, if I didn't, I would always wonder "what if." Of course, I ended up exploring things with Miah.

"What if" with Miah didn't turn out so successfully, though, and now Paul and I are talking over the phone again. He is a very wonderful man, very kind, sweet, responsible, and handsome, too! We have all this history of having wanted to meet and such, but I don't want to do anything hasty. And even though Paul expresses enthusiasm about meeting, he has his own issues with fear, too. And I know I'm still healing from things with Miah. So, I'm taking things very slowly and may even consider discontinuing phone conversations with Paul until I feel I've sorted things out and I'm really available.

So, yes, life is busy but wonderful. I hope I don't stop writing altogether!

I am currently: doing laundry
Listening to: homework calling, calling