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The Journal of A. Paige White It's T-ball season! woohoooooo
03/20/2009 02:17 p.m.
Logan's first practice at 5:30 today! I feel like a little kid myself, so excited. They're going to get him a glove and probably his own bat... Kim's going to try to get off early so she can come watch (and bring Gage, as per Nana's orders, lol) I CAN'T WAIT!!!!! Aaaaaand, I get Logan for the weekend! Bet we'll be practicing in the back yard... Well, I get him if there's no more practices over the weekend. Hadn't thought about that... I CAN'T WAIT!!!
I LOVE T-BALL!!!!
I'm over halfway through a book... whoa... what a book. A million little pieces by (can't remember if it's james or thomas) Frey. Oh. My. God. I think Kara must've loaned it to me and I stuck it in the headboard with the sliding door,closed it and forgot all about it til she called the other day about a book of poetry I'm quite certain I already gave back to her. Must be another God thing. No telling how long it would have been there, forgotten, if she'd not called. Whoa. It's heavy heavy heavy. Reminds me of a pathetic poet. And then this word from Kathie Pelton... boy oh boy oh boy...
Remember...Don't Light Your Own Torches!
"But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall receive from my hand: You will lie down in torment." Isaiah 50:11
Ten years ago, I was going through another difficult time. During that time God was walking me through some deep inner-healing from issues in my childhood that were affecting my adult life. As some of the pain and wounds surfaced, I would attempt to find relief from the pain by trying to find my way through it on my own. Though I never made any headway in this effort, it did leave me with a bad case of insomnia that lasted for months.
During one of these sleepless nights, I was searching the Scriptures for some comfort, when I stumbled across the verse in Isaiah 50:11. I immediately realized this was what I had been doing. I was lighting my own torch and trying to find my way apart from His light. As a result, I had lain down each night in torment.
As I repented, things began to improve. Though they didn't change overnight, I began a process of allowing the light of the Lord to lead me through the darkness that I was facing. Now a decade later, though this is a very different circumstance, I am once again facing this truth. I cannot go back to walking in the light of my own torch, but I must wait for the Lord to lead our family through this dark time. Once again I find myself repenting for leaning on my own understanding.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.
"Honor the LORD with your wealth, with the first fruits of all your crops; then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over with new wine. My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline and do not resent His rebuke, because the LORD disciplines those He loves, as a father the son He delights in." Proverbs 3:5-12
He is Forever Faithful
I have settled it: "I don't understand God's ways!" I have also decided that "God is forever faithful, even when I don't understand!" When He says that He carries me (and you), it is the truth.
"There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place." Deuteronomy 1:31
"He tends His flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in His arms and carries them close to His heart; He gently leads those that have young." Isaiah 40:11
He is our Father, He is tender, He is gentle, and He does not leave us without help. His children are being prepared to walk without roots of fear ruling in their hearts and lives. We must respond to His love—both the love that carries us and the love that corrects us. Join me in fasting from every action that is based in fear. Let us allow Him to pull up every root of fear that ushers us into controlling, manipulative and frantic behaviors. He truly is our peace and we must trust Him even when we don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. Don't light your own torch even when all you see is darkness. It is not dark to Him.
"If I say, 'Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,' even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you." Psalm 139:11-12
We're in this together!
Kathi Pelton
Light Streams Ministries
I am currently Excited
I am listening to nothing yet but perusing HOS
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