It's a matter of showing up
03/17/2009 06:27 a.m.

Being present, in this moment. Not pinning too much on the next, not ruminating too much about the previous. It's time to exercise, eat right, go to bed at a decent hour, rest, care for Meme, care for Steven and Amanda (and Jennell when she'll allow it), chant, pray, listen, study, and whatever else the day calls for. Pay the bills on time. Do what needs to be done, and the universe will send what I need to me.

It is simple. It's time to just BE in every moment, and not long to be somewhere different. Magic has always been a diversion for me. But I am here, and physical, for a reason and for a season. I will return to the ethereal when I no longer need this tacit experience.

For now, I am surrounded, grounded by things of matter, form, solidity. If I was supposed to be formless, that would be different. I've spent my life trying to return to that state, longing for that "other" world where there was no suffering. And have I managed to return? *laughing* NO! I remain as solid as ever. Maybe these extra pounds have kept me grounded all this time. Well, I think I'm going to be just fine without them from now on! I release these extra pounds from their responsibilities, free to dissipate and attach themselves to the next form that requires their assistance. As for me, I don't need to float away anymore. I'm here for the duration, and I release whatever I no longer need in love.

Ok, earth to Alison. Didn't mean to go all esoteric. But it's good, it really is.

I am currently: breathing
Listening to: whatever makes my eardrums tingle