Update on the old home front
01/16/2009 08:50 a.m.

School is going very well. I'm SO enjoying being out and about and the stimulation of this old brain of mine!!! So far, 100% all around. *grinning*

I've gotten my health insurance, too, and have seen the Dr. for the diabetes. When I first saw her, my blood sugar was 336 fasting. Well, the Dr. was pretty sure I was going to have to go on insulin, but I KNEW I could turn it around if I paid more attention to diet and exercise. My next appt regarding the diabetes was a month away. So, I buckled down - cut out the sugar, increased the fiber, and I've been exercising as much as I can with this goofy month long chest cold (every year!!!). So far, I've lost 10 lbs, and brought my blood sugar down to 191. Not great, but it's getting there. And with the help of the metformin, I know it'll get better so I don't have to do the insulin at this point. But I have to say, WOW - eating the right amount of fiber in a day is DIFFICULT!!!! Just give me some cardboard....hehe.

AND, all the female problems are being handled. All the tests came out perfectly normal, so it's just hormones. WHEW!!!!

Miah is in California at the moment. We've continued the counseling, and the final outcome of our relationship is still up in the air. But for employment - there just are NO jobs up here, and his old boss said he could come down and help close the Calendar Club stores like he used to....so, for the moment, we're separated but still a couple. What a roller coaster. I guess I don't know of many relationships that aren't. The thing is, the bottom line we always get to is that we love one another, despite the difficulties. We still don't know if we can survive them all, but time will tell.

My poetry class is especially interesting. I'm learning, officially (hehehe), about meter and stressed and unstressed syllables, about Villanelles and other frames for a poem, about internal rhyme, masculine and feminine rhyme, alliteration, assonance, etc. I've learned that, instinctively, we all employ alot of that to some degree or another. I'm also learning that I just go with what comes out, very few revisions, and that probably, my work sucks!!! LOL!!! Oh well, I'm learning, and that's the important thing.

I'm not putting very much in here at this point. I'm just too busy writing for homework!!! I'm also in WR121, which involves a lot of essay writing. Creatively, I'm pooped!!! But if I come up with something noteworthy in class, I'll for sure post it at some point. I have decided I'm going to write a very candid poem about the sexual abuse I suffered in my legal father's care, but it's going to be a careful undertaking. It has to be said just right. It has to have just the right emphasis on everything. I feel like it's going to be a major work for me, maybe even a key work. My poetry class has inspired me to do it as we've been listening to some other poets who've been brave enough to take on their childhoods.

Ok. Time to take my antibiotic, a dose of my codeine cough syrup and off to bed. Alone. Ugh. LOL


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I am listening to my dogs chew their rawhide