More Honesty
01/04/2009 08:19 p.m.
It seems like last year happened so quickly. so many things happened, and so many things changed. everything is still changing, or set to change. i wonder how time can go by so quickly when looked back on, yet when they are in the present it seems to slow to a crawl. i remember so many things that happened and they seem like yesterday, even though they are almost a lifetime away.

how so many hurts can be healed by time that seems to have slipped away silently in the night. so many tears can be sewn with the passing of days and weeks. people can be loved and lost over night it seems, while others stand the hours, waiting for their moment of fruition. i went through the span of emotions, finding myself somewhere in the middle, still standing a little beaten and bruised, but still here. still sane and in one piece, even though i felt like i fell apart time and time again. unscathed, i am still here. better for it, stronger then i ever thought i was; with more love and compassion inside then i ever believed i possessed. i always thought i would never make it through, thinking that this was the end all be all of my life, only to understand that i have much more to give and gain in this life then ever deemed possible.

new truths have come to light, and old lies have been put to rest. i have been tested, trampled and knocked down. i have been built up and upon, lit again and fired up for another thousand rounds of this battle we call life. i have found some of the things inside that i thought i lost or never had. i have found new sparks to start this year and the next. i am glad to say i am starting this new year with you, and glad we didn't start the last one this way. i think if we had, we wouldn't be sitting here today loving learning and knowing each other. i am a better person to love now then i was then, only because i have learned a new trick or two that was hidden up my sleeve. i know now that i am worth honest love and deserving of patience, and i have those to give freely without reserve.
I am currently Peaceful