She's not a girl who misses much...
12/09/2008 12:08 a.m.
"She's not a girl who misses much..." Except the ones I've had to say goodbye to. It seems as though lately life is one grotesque culmination of goodbyes.

I saw you out of the corner of my eye,
Watching me walk away
Months ago.
You knew I wouldn't be back until our
Final goodbye,
But I sincerely hadn't seen this coming.
I didn't see you leaving so abruptly.

And I'm sorry I couldn't face you.
That once you picked me up and dusted me off,
I didn't need you anymore.

That I fled the scene once I
Caught word of your plans to
Finally escape.

I suppose I took the easy route.
Dissappeared as soon as I could,
So to spare myself the pain of stretching the limbs
Of a two syllable word across a span of
Months.

I opted to run
Because it was so hard to face the word.

And here I am,
Holding back tears
While holding a dear friend
Forcing the sound of it from my bowels.

And I've cheated myself of
Time ; Memories.

And for that I'll always be sorry.





I am currently Helpless
I am listening to Stars of Track and Field - With You