i know
11/07/2008 09:46 p.m.
So be it, Im your crowbar
If thats what I am so far
Until you get out of this mess
And I will pretend
That I dont know of your sins
Until you are ready to confess
But all the time, all the time
Ill know, Ill know
And you can use my skin
To bury secrets in
And I will settle you down
And at my own suggestion,
I will ask no questions
While I do my thing in the background
But all the time, all the time
Ill know, Ill know
Baby-i cant help you out, while shes still around
So for the time being, Im being patient
And amidst this bitterness
If youll just consider this-even if it dont make sense
All the time-give it time
And when the crowd becomes your burden
And youve early closed your curtains,
Ill wait by the backstage door
While you try to find the lines to speak your mind
And pry it open, hoping for an encore
And if it gets too late, for me to wait
For you to find you love me, and tell me so
Its ok, dont need to say it.



'i know' - fiona apple







i know this isn't how he feels and this isn't how this situation really is and this isn't how things will ever ever ever be but i know. i know. i know this is what i want. it's sad that he doesn't need to say it and i know it but it's not even there. i know something that doesn't exist.

god i'm lonely without him. without the idea that it's really there. i'm so lonely with or without him. i just want to wrap my arms around him. why does he make me so weak? why can't i get these things straight in my head?

why can't it just be simple. and in my hands. under my control. not ridiculously above my head.

this is so childish of me.
I am currently Sad
I am listening to 'i know' - fiona apple