Catching up
10/31/2008 06:14 a.m.

Meme's been battling this UTI she's had since the end of August. They now have her on the strongest oral antibiotic she can possibly be on. Her potassium is too high, but not yet dangerously so. She is slightly anemic, but only just slightly. She's still in pain, but the CT done on Tuesday was negative for kidney stones or obstructions of any kind. She has a VERY small stone in her right kidney, but not enough to cause the trace blood in her urinalysis. She seems totally NOT herself, at any rate, and it's no wonder with a UTI that's seen only temporary resolution since August. What happens next, if this course of ABX doesn't take care of it, is either in the hospital for IV antibiotics, or I get to administer them myself in shot form.

In the meantime ("oh no, not the meantime)...my back is out, my head won't stop hurting, my blood sugar is too high, I keep having palpitations (and twice, nearly blacked out - but without chest pain or shortness of breath) a little cough at the end of it, though, after I try to take a deep breath to resolve it. Weird symptoms, probably all stress-related. The good news is that I WAS chosen (applause) in the random Oregon Health Plan lottery, but I probably won't hear back on my application for another month or so. Oh, and my monthly "gift" was two weeks late, only to end up lasting a full three weeks, which brings me right into my next cycle. I'm all-kinda screwed up!

And the LAMEST part of all is that I am aware that this could just be my body's sick and twisted effort to get the attention off of others and onto - ME. Can I just go puke now from how ridiculous I feel???? Either that, or perhaps the "symptoms" I'm experiencing are mere physical manifestations of the stressors I have going on right now, you know, the ones I'm obviously not dealing with effectively right now. PPppffffffffftttttttttt.

The bare truth of it is that I have responsibilities that I HAVE to tend to, and I MUST be well to do it properly. So, I'm just going to have to give myself a little pep talk, pull myself up by the boot-straps and KNOCK-IT-OFF. Geeeeeeze. And I suppose, I'm just going to HAVE to set aside time to get quiet, in myself and by myself. I KNOW when my body hurts, it's usually because I'm not hearing something I need to hear, and THAT happens when I don't get quiet enough to listen. That, and I think it's imperative to remember to be thankful!

So, speaking of getting quiet....




I am currently Thoughtfull
I am listening to my back