Peace and peace
10/15/2008 08:21 a.m.

I don't know, I feel like I've settled in somehow.

Joe's baby has been born. Kate is off on her own. Jess is coming home in November for a month. Steven is blossoming this year - the main character in the school's fall production of "Harvey", his art and his singing. Amanda has finally adjusted to life back with me after 10 years at her dad's house. Only my relationship Jennell remains unresolved. But, for her sake, I have to leave it be for now.

Meme is doing very well. She turns 89 on the 19th. I am pretty proud of the way she's rallied herself. Just a year ago we thought she was living out the last of her days; thought we were bringing her home to die in her own environment. Well, she's certainly showed us a thing or two about that! And I'm glad that she's not suffering, glad that I am blessed enough to be able to care for her as she did for me in my beginning. Now the circle is coming back around - me caring for her during these last years of her journey.

And last, but not at all least, life with Miah has evened out. Infact, I am living something I only once dared to dream. It would have done no good to admit how in love with him I was all those years ago, when a life with him seemed (and was) impossible. I thought I would burst from those wonderful moments we shared then. Never in a million years would I have thought it truly possible for us to share a future with one another. Back then I thought, "This was a lovely time, and I will cherish it always, and that's all." A morsel to carry me through the lean times ahead. But every once in a blue moon, I would allow myself the luxury of wondering what he might be doing, what kind of man he was becoming, imagining what he might be passionate about and how that would play out for him. And how it is, though not exactly as I imagined, is as magical as ever. After consulting a vedic astrologer, we're looking at February 2010 as the month for the wedding.

But back to the present, cuz, "Now Is All There Is"...hehe. On Friday morning, I'm driving once more to Warrenton, to meet Atreyu ("Trey") and hang out overnight there. (There will be pictures!!!) And then I'll be bringing Kate back home for a brief visit before her nanny duties kick in full-on. And then Sunday, all my grandmother's children will be here to celebrate her 89th birthday - a family re-union of sorts. My aunt from Arizona, my mom from Portland, my aunt from here, and my uncle from Salem. A house-full. It will be a happy, happy time!

So, on that note, I'm off to dreamland.



I am currently Content
I am listening to the cool autumn breeze