i don't go to sleep to dream.
09/05/2008 04:00 p.m.
A few weeks ago I started having nightmares. They were different but they were the same. The first one I remember, I was shot in the back and taken to a "backwoods" hospital by my father only to be chased by doctors and this creepy man who wanted to kill me.

The other one, I was being chased too...by Richard Gere. I know, right?

Anyway, I looked up what these dreams could possibly mean on the fabulous internet. I found these on freakydreams.com...

Shot - To dream that you are shot, represents a form of self-punishment that you may be unconsciously imposing on yourself. You may have done something that you are ashamed of or are not proud of. If you are shot and come back as a different person, then it indicates that you to start fresh. You want to wipe the past away and literally become a new person.

Chase - Dream Meanings - CHASE
To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is often a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are chased by an animal, represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.


So with all that, I made changes in my waking life which seemed to keep these nightmares at bay.

Two nights ago, I woke up my roommates by gasping for air. I couldn't even remember what I was dreaming about. I did like a scared sigh/gasp and started breathing heavy.

And last night, I had another "chase" dream. Only this time it was from something that was inevitable to run from. It would have caught me eventually. And then I somehow ended up in my ex's car with him and there was a physical fight between us and I was so angry but had no reason to be because what happened was my fault.

I woke up crying.

I don't know what's going on now. Yesterday I did have this heavy feeling all day. I was overwhelmed with anxiety and I don't know why or where it came from.


I just need to sleep, peacefully, for one night.
I am currently Bothered
I am listening to anyone else but you - the moldy peaches