Moving on to a new phase
09/03/2008 03:26 p.m.

My triplets are seniors this year! This is the last year I will be a mother of school-aged children. I know the triplets feel the magic of it, the opportunities to be young people that will forever be gone after graduation. I'm so glad they are excited, and each of them plans to take advantage of experiencing the last little bit of this leg of their journey into adulthood. Steven is deeply involved in the activities he enjoys - music, choir, thespians, his friends. And even Amanda, who's had such a difficult time adjusting to life with me, says this year feels different in such a good way. She's taking guitar and art, and feeling more comfortable in her environment this year. What a relief, for both of us! Jennell is finishing school and her childhood at her dad's, and as long as she's happy and comfortable, I'm happy too!

I thought it would age me more. I thought I would dread it. Maybe that's coming. But at the moment, I feel an excitement of my own as well as what I feel with the kids. A phase of my own long journey, that of caretaking, which I've actually been doing quite heavily since I was about 7 years old, is coming to a close. I feel it in my bones and it brings with it a feeling of anticipation for the next part of my journey that I can't seem to shake off so I can settle down and finish this.

Ahhh, but I must digress. They've all made it, each of them progressing to graduation and finding their way afterward. I know I don't deserve to take alot of credit for the success, but I am proud that we've all survived the last 25 years so well, and that for all the traumas and difficulties, the outcomes seem to be actually quite positive for everyone. I mean, there were times when I wondered if we would survive the years emotionally. Their dad divorcing me was soooooo painful and difficult for them (and me), and then the ensuing relationships that their dad and I, each, entered into....quite the lives of chaos and uncertainty, at times, that both their dad and I heaped onto their little lives.

Well, the summer went by so fast - I know the school year will fly by as well. I intend to enjoy each moment, relish it, cherish it...and then assess where I'm needed at the end of the year. I don't know what to expect, if Meme will still be alive and needing my care, if either of the last of my babies will be ready to head out into the world.

BUT, if I find myself free to move about the globe.....OH MAAAAANN!!!!!!!


I am currently Excited
I am listening to traffic