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The Journal of Alison McKenzie Things are quiet
08/25/2008 09:45 a.m.
2:18 am. Things are quiet at my house. It's raining, and the smell of freshly cleansed air - so fragrant.
I PMS'd a little this month, but I think my prayer "to whom it may concern" was heard....lol. No mood challenges nearly as drastic as during other periods of late, and the thought of marriage didn't torture me at all. What a relief! I'm sure Miah was grateful as well!!!
I feel a flux, you know, waiting for a new phase to fade into being. I don't feel particularly anxious about it like I have in the past when I knew that I knew my life was shifting into another gear entirely. Maybe that comes with age, the sensation of observing rather than expecting and anticipating. I don't know. It's strange, but not in an unpleasant way.
Well, sleepiness is kicking back in, so I'll be off to dreamland now. I've put out a request to have a visit with my guide and perhaps an elder during dreamtime. I'd like to get to the bottom of a couple of things in my life, eventually, and from what I've read, it is possible to visit those temples of knowledge on the other side while we are still on this side of the veil. We'll see how my request works out.
I am currently Refreshed
I am listening to the rain
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| Posted by Genevieve Sturrock on 08/25/08 at 03:45 PM i am not familiar with your religion and find your approach to problem solving interesting. i hope you find the answers you seek. i find that i move from one phase of my life into another that i am changing from the 'expecting and anticipating' to the 'observing' as well. it is especially interesting to be doing so as i raise my youngest. he is now 6 and i have so much more patience and understanding for him than i did with my older children. he is truly reaping the benefits of my older kid's pain...which is sad in its own way.
i too suffer from PMS and wild mood swings. in my quest to know myself better, i have really focused on being aware of my inner balance. i can tell when i start shifting off balance. i finally realized that i have no control over the balance, but i can control how i approach my life when i am out of balance. i still get wildly anxious inside, but i don't lash out anymore...and that makes me feel more controlled. it is really difficult when aspects of your life are out of your control (like with our older kids and your Miah). but being able to recognize that the inner turmoil is hormones and not really the life we are in is a Godsend! blessings to you my friend. hugs and lots of happy thoughts. |
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