My little rooney called at 1:15 am
08/14/2008 05:10 p.m.

1:15 am this morning, I'm in the midst of having this horrible dream, (which I can remember nothing about at all this morning), when suddenly my cell phone ringing jars me awake. It's Kate, and she's had a particularly disturbing nightmare as well, and doesn't want to wake her brother. So, we talk for about 2 hours until her sister-in-law gets up for an early business trip and Kate can finally go back to sleep. YIKES!!!

I'm one tired unit this morning, but the show must go on!

I love my little rooney girl. SOOOOO much. She's beginning to come into her own, to realize who she is and what she's made of. She's especially beginning to come to grips with her spiritual self, and I stand awed and amazed at what must be the first steps of her very long journey into self-awareness. I have always been awestruck by this child, this angel who came to "make sure you're (I am) going to be alright."

I knew the MINUTE I became pregnant with her. My being was filled with joy and a sense of peace that I had never experienced before. I could feel her little spirit flitting in and out of my womb, and sometimes she'd "disappear" for days at a time, and then I would feel her rejoin me. The morning I went into labor with her, I was so happy to finally be able to hold her. Her birth was literally the easiest I have ever known! When it was finally time to push, I was LAUGHING because it was so effortless and joyful. And it's just always been this way with her. As she's grown, she's flitted more and more away, until now, she is a young woman, heading off to live with her brother after his baby is born to help raise the first of the newest generation in our family, Atreyu.

She is a remarkable young woman, full of psychic abilities and love for others. She used to be so painfully shy, and now, as she's blossomed, she's turned into quite the caring, social butterfly, able to make even strangers feel welcome in her space. She is acutely aware of evil in the world, and this has caused her to question any belief in a supposedly loving "god" who would allow such tragedies to exist. I know she will find her way, she is just too full of love and laughter and light to be truly abandoned by Creator. She is just one of those souls that you know is going to touch the lives of others with her gift of healing and genuine caring somehow. I truly feel priviledged to witness as she steps into her amazing strength and purpose.

I'm so glad she's taking this time to hang out with her brother, Joe. He is another of my remarkable children, but in a unique way that I'm not quite sure I can ever fully explain. Things have been so rough for Joe, a life he didn't deserve but somehow got anyway. And yet, he has come into his own, too, amazing and wonderful despite his difficult childhood years, during which he was rarely able to just "be a kid." I'm ashamed to say I can take little credit for his success as an adult. I stand in awe of his courage and maturity every day I breathe.

It feels like destiny, for the two of them to blend their lives now, Kate joining Joe and Tamara (Joe's wife) to live with them and basically be Atreyu's nanny. I'm incredibly blessed to be a part of the lives of these brilliant and loving souls.

P.S. "rooney" is my nic for Kate. Sometime during her teenage years, one of her friends started calling her Kate-a-rooney, and so now it's shrunk to "rooney." hehe.





I am currently Tired
I am listening to the television in Meme's livingroom blaring.