Just some updates
07/29/2008 09:37 p.m.

Some positive additions to life going on!!!

I met with Susan, who is the head of the spiritual care dept. at the local hospital. She has been wonderful, meeting with me free of charge (I guess she does that with any clients she takes on since the hospital provides her salary, and part of her job description is community service). I am so blessed to have the opportunity to have someone to talk to, someone who knows about caretaking and running a family at the same time. AND, she offered the respite services of an organization called Lifeworks, and now, at no cost to us, Meme will be getting a helper every Wednesday for six hours, and it's respite for me!!! I have NO idea what I'll do with my Wed. afternoons, but whatever it is, it will be sweet. :-)

Also, it may sound like a small thing, but I figured out how to get Meme interested in getting dressed every morning. She had been just staying in her night clothes because it was too difficult for her to manage wearing slacks with her bladder issues now. But I went shopping for her, and bought her some dresses...casual-type t-shirt dresses mostly, and a couple of jumpers where she can wear a simple blouse underneath. And she's perked up considerably. She was particularly tickled when Steven, my 17 yr old son, told her how pretty she looked yesterday in one of her new dresses. YAY! One small step for mankind!

Miah and I are calmly and reasonably discussing our options. We do love one another very much, but it's been a very difficult year and a half of both successful and unsuccessful adjustments for both of us. He's still considering taking some time to himself to be on his own and do some healing. But first, we're looking forward to the vacation we have planned the second week of September. We're going to go hang out for four days at an intentional community and donate a little service in exchange for the peace and serenity of the hot springs and the vegetarian cuisine and hiking and wellness/talking circles and such, and then we're going to go on to the coast for the rest of our vacation and just chill there on the beach. The time away should give us an excellent opportunity to really talk about the direction(s) we want to take, and whether or not going forward together is really what we can/want to do. In the meantime, I've decided to just put struggling with "the issues" aside, just chill, and see if I can spend some time "in the moment" simply enjoying Jeremiah's and my family's company. It's just too damn taxing to constantly try to sort everything out, to FEEEEEEL everything. So, I can live with that for now.

*taking a deep breath* I think I need a nap.

Maybe I'll actually take one since the lady who plays the harp for Meme is here, and she has the voice of an angel...




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