Changes
07/29/2008 02:29 a.m.
I suppose this will be another new start in a constantly changing life. It seems as though I am always having to change and adapt to my shifty surroundings at every turn. Maybe we all do this. Maybe it's just me. I can't seem to decide what I want to do with my life, or where I want life to take me. I know that it is time to take control of what is going on around me and make some decisions. I am generally comfortable with allowing the winds of life to blow me in whichever direction it seems fit. As nice as that can be, it is time. It is time for me to take responsibility for where I will end up and when. I have to keep myself motivated, because I know that I am a perpetual starter. I find it difficult to finish anything I start. I become complacent when I no longer have the instant gratification of a life that moves on its own whim.
Life will take the wheel and drive where it chooses until you make it pull over and change seats. I think I am beginning to understand that. I am finally seeing that you are in control of your own destiny. Or at least in the way you get there. I do not want to be sitting here at the same point five years from now; blaming the incidences of the world for my lack of happiness. If I am unhappy at that point then maybe I will be able to truly take the blame. I will be able to at least understand that I got my self there. I did it, no one else.