i just read this one, then read the next one about meme and your journey, andor NOT-journey. you see the answer; you stated it. 'tis her life and it's to be respected, i love you for your expression of life and yet watch impending death, i too, watched medad[2002]slowly wither in several months, watched his last breath, kissed him and said Voila!, it is done, he has already gone and leaves his ashes, memom[1972], i never got either, i received a phone call[collect, no less] from her[re: the nurse kratchit on shift] that my mom had just died from an apparent heart attack, oh well, life is death...and in my last pome that is what i meant by God[being] the author of the love that hurts...i love you, hold you in memetaphysical arms and squeeze...