i have never known stability
07/14/2008 02:24 a.m.
i don't stay
in the same place
for very long
and it seems i am always
packing for my next destination
or unpacking from where i've been

it hasn't been my choice;
i had to learn
how to adapt,
how to never
get too attached
to great things

consequently,
i have made a lifestyle
out of upheaval

[i never cried about it,
there was no time for tears]

then suddenly, unannounced,
the chaos ceases and
the tides are still.
in the warm security
of his arms
he shows me
what it means to be safe
and what it feels like
to have a home

it was not clear to me
how much i needed it
until i felt it