Heavy eyes
06/05/2008 07:45 a.m.


My eyelids are heavy, the sand-in-the-bottom sort of heavy, but my mind is still trying to absorb today.

The weeping eventually subsided, and I didn't dwell on coincidences or sad memories too much. I didn't go to Berna's memorial, either. I really didn't know him, and I would have been out of place. Ahhhh, but when I took a nap, I did dream of them.

I feel supremely exhausted. I could have used today off, stoned maybe.

Miah and I took the dogs for a walk above a lovely park just across the river, in Washington. We let them both off their leashes to just run the countryside as there wasn't anyone else for them to bother. They seemed in heaven, and they didn't "run away" but let us call them happily back whenever they ventured off too far. It felt nice to offer them such freedom. We all came home spent, a good spent.

Kate's graduation is just around the corner, and I can't believe the school year is nearly over for Steven and Amanda too. I honestly don't know where the time is going. Everyone feels it, the swiftness of these times and the crazy feeling of everything rushing by too fast to even make a proper memory of it.

I lost the ring that Miah bought me in Eugene. I can't find it anywhere. Well, it was an inexpensive ring, and it was my idea anyway, so it's probably just as well.

I'm not looking forward to "seeing" my ex and his family. Even when we're all getting along, there's just too much pretense and forced smiling. Luckily, this is not about me (she says to her ego).

I am currently Exhausted
I am listening to miah snoring.