Weeping
06/04/2008 06:48 p.m.
I can't seem to quit weeping today, bouts of it blindsiding me. Every sound, every whisper of the wind, every thought that penetrates this strange fog seems to speak of this grieving. It is as if past and present have converged today, a peak of coincidental events. I know it doesn't really work like that. Still, today has a certain sci-fi, spooky feel to it.

I just need to get through it, let it pass over. I feel ill, nauseated and weak, like some vortex is threatening to suck me in. And if I thought it was a possibility, I might just let it. Anything to not feel today.

There are things to look forward to, happy events. Kate will graduate on Saturday. On Tuesday, we'll have Jeremiah's, Amanda's, Steven's and Jennell's birthday party. Jeremiah will be 28. The triplets will be 17. There are things to look forward to, and tomorrow I know I will feel grateful.

As for today....

I am currently Troubled
I am listening to the translation of grief