Please forgive
05/28/2008 06:10 p.m.

First of all, I want to apologize to anyone I haven't gotten back to re: comments or IM messages. I don't mean to come across as rude or ungrateful.

This last weekend has really knocked me for a loop. Emotionally I'm still a wreck. I know that everything is sort of stacking up all at once - the hormones, the trauma, the time of year it is, graduation, and responsibilities in general. I'm just not feeling myself, and I find myself sinking into depression - something I haven't done this intensely for years. And, I know I'm not alone in my state of mind. Everyday I read about another person struggling with it all...

On top of everything personal, I find myself extra-sensitive to the negative state of the world at large, like the fact that the cambodian children's school breakfast program is being stopped because the folks who used to provide the rice for that program at a reasonable price can get three times as much selling that same rice in other markets; gasoline has gone over $4/gallon, making it next to impossible to travel by car (or by any other means relying on petrol). Grocery prices have increased so much, and it's depressing that there aren't any "cheap" ways to eat. Cereal is just about unaffordable, as well as just about everything else besides Ramen Noodles. And the nutritional value in Ramen noodles is nil. *sigh*

The Bhagavad-Gita says that in this age of kaliyuga, the only "way out" is by chanting the holy names. The churches who teach from the Bible say that accepting Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior is the only way. Everyone believes their way is "the" way. And I wonder why there are so many "answers" that seem to produce so few tangible results. Not all the Christians in the world, nor all the Vaishnavas, nor the Muslims, nor the Buddhists, nor the Jews...no one set of prayers from ANY of the major or minor religious sects have improved the condition of the world at large. Obviously, there are some major philisophical and religious flaws in our belief systems, and I don't know what the solution is or even where to begin to look for it.

I used to have peace within myself, but that's been gone, too, for quite some time.

And all that's been said, all that we've experienced in these times....what does it all mean? Who will hear of it? I have little faith that even our thoughts on these subjects will make it through the coming times intact.

Well.


I am currently Bothered
I am listening to too many random thoughts