i dont know
05/23/2008 04:56 a.m.
i can't stop crying. i dont really know why. i think its just i think about the past 5 years of my life and this is not who i wanted to be. at all. i hate who i have become. i hate that i cant sustain a real relationship. that i sabotage anything good that comes into my life. that i make myself unlovable. that i know everything that is inherently wrong with me and yet i havent changed a goddamn thing. that im writing this on here because i honestly dont even know who i can call anymore to talk about these things. god my head hurts. i cant even remember the last time i cried like this. sigh. i apologize for wasting space. i just dont know what to do.
I am currently Bothered