I have to say something about my guy....
01/30/2008 07:46 p.m.


Being in a relationship is not easy. I know that, at my age, very well.

Being in a relationship with a man 18 years younger than me brings along with it all the "usual" relationship stuff (differences in communication styles, luggage from the past, struggles for control over certain "territories"), plus the age difference issues (issues stemming from different points of view due to generational experiences, energy level differences, some differences in entertainment choices, etc).

But I am experiencing one main difference with Jeremiah that keeps me going. Where every other man I've been in a relationship with is finally content to let the relationship go when I've run out of energy (as if I was the one responsible for providing energy and once I couldn't provide that for a minute, they simply shrugged and discarded me), Jeremiah sees value here, encouraging me to keep going because what we have together is worth working through the hardships in order to realize the fruit of what we have.

I LOVE that about him. I'm still not 100% convinced this is going to last, but at least I'm willing to keep exploring the possibilities, and I have hope that we DO have something worth the effort it's taking to go forward.

I know I'm old, and tired, and easily discouraged given my history of ended relationships. I'm jaded, I'm sad to admit, and that doesn't make it easy for faith to thrive inside my time with Jeremiah. But he infuses us with his hope, and for that I'm grateful!!!!
I am currently Happy
I am listening to only two tones in my ears.