Epiphany
10/16/2007 03:53 a.m.
New beginnings are hard to come by.
You always expect them, but never accept them.
No one ever wants to give second chances, but everyone wants to take them.
Why is that?

Why is it that you can have a friend for a decade who won't give you the time of day after you've done something as mediocre as called her a "bitch."
Then you can forgive someone you've known only a year for spreading rumors about you, destroying your name and reputation...
I think it's the person...It's all in the person.

Me? I'm too forgiving. I forgive everyone, for everything, every time.
You want to steal from me?
You want to lie to me?
You want to date my ex?
You slept with my boyfriend. my FIRST true love?
You wanna talk shit behind my back?
You want to take complete advantage of every aspect I have to offer?
You beat the shit out of me constantly?
...And yet, I forgave all of you...


Trust me. I've been here, Done this...and I'm DONE with the drama. I may be young, but that doesn't mean I'm stupid, and the sad truth is, I've got more maturity than half the thirty year olds I know.
Yes, I do give second chances....hell I give third fourth and fifth chances...
sometimes tens, twenties, and hundreds of chances...
but WHY!?

Why go out of your way to continue having TOXIC friends who only BRING YOU DOWN?

Sorry. I'm ranting today.
Anyways, I'm done with it all.
I miss my true friends.
The ones I cared about the most.
The ones who made me feel like I was SOMEONE to this world.
Where did they go?
I thought They had abandoned me.
And then just as I forgot them...

They jump back into my life, like some twisted game of jump rope.

Lord save us all, I think I'm about to have an epiphany.
I am currently Depressed
I am listening to myself type