gain a little
10/10/2007 03:36 a.m.
i can't believe
a year later
i'm still here
dissecting
every choice of words
any inflection in his sentence
just to grasp
just to surmise
some idea
of what he could mean

[i am scared that the truth
is obvious but
it is not what i want]

i keep losing so much
just to gain a little