[031]
08/12/2007 01:48 a.m.

all i ever do anymore is fall in love with people who won't
fall in love with me.

not even.
just in a "baby --
call-me-baby-
ask-me-over"
kind of way just like "baby --
you're-so-pretty-baby-
you're-so-perfect-baby-"
kind of.

and don't you ever tell me to get over it, especially
when i'm drunk because
all of the good in me is
directed at a sports bar bathroom mirror and saying "jesus-girl --
you're-so-pretty-girl,"
even when i'm smoking all the time --

"jesus-girl," you
said you'd win my heart and
no, you say you like me --
like your girlfriend better --
even when i'm smoking all the time and
breaking everything in sight and

all i want to do is love my body because
so many people say they love me tell me "baby --
jesus-baby-girl," but
god i'm so fat and god
i'm just so
i can't accept that everyone --

can't you just be insecure with me?
can't you be just as ashamed when you're naked and
just as sure when you're brand new?
can't you ask me questions back?

but all i ever do anymore is --
oh god come quickly because
"oh-god-baby --
i-can-tell-you're-leaving-baby
won't-even-bother-baby-
because-baby,"
kind of just like --

even when i'm smoking all the time,
jesus, girl, oh god, not even.
I am currently Unhappy