Once again...
07/21/2007 09:45 p.m.
It's endlessly frustrating
When you've found that you've
Become the person you've so despised.
You find yourself in the same old slum
Thinking "Hey...it wasn't supposed to be like this."

You've got an excuse for everything.
And lies roll off of your tounge so eloquently.
But dollface, someone's heart is tied to yours once more.
The decisions you make don't just affect you anymore.
8 swigs of Johnny Walker, a young man close beside you,
But there's a heart hanging in the balance
Somewhere out of bounds.

You're out of it.
You second guess yourself.
Are you ready for this at all?
You better figure it out now,
Before you let that boy fall.
You've got everything you've ever wanted in his arms,
But your teenage heart still wanders.
Your youthful body craves attention.



Darling, listen to me.
It might not seem as 'fun' at the time,
But put that bottle down.
Because the only man who will fight for your love,
Can't handle your wild ways.


The only man you'll ever need
Has been waiting for you for days.
But the only man you'll ever need
Can't wait for you always.






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I fuck things up. I do. I do this! All the time! And I can't not do it. I mean, I'm sure I could. If I really tried. But dear lord. I'm constantly fucking up. And I just want to love someone, and for him to love me. And when I find that, that one thing I've always wanted, I get bored? I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Where to go from here. If anything like this ever happens again, I won't trust myself with loving him. I won't...but if it does. I'm ending it entirely. Because this man. This man deserves so much more. And I will fight to give it to him. Fight with everything I've got. And try not to fuck this one up. I love him. I'd die for him. I will fight for him.


I am currently Detached
I am listening to Beware! Criminal! - Incubus