I'm so in love
07/06/2007 03:57 a.m.
I just can't get over it. He's been here for four months, and everything is fresh and new and wonderful. But I don't mean to make it sound like a fairy tale. It isn't. We grouch around. We get frustrated with one another. We grapple with each other's styles and try to make sense of how we fit (and, of course, my ever present analytical "why" do we fit this way?).

I truly don't even begin to grasp how it's possible that we work - him 27, me 44. I hear folks say, "Oh, age is just a number." I'm here to tell you it isn't. His whole communication style is from a different generation, his understanding a reflection of so many components (not just age). He makes me laugh. He takes the fact that he loves me for granted, and I often ask for the reassurance of it. I just can't fathom that someone with his youth would find enjoyment in me and my age (translations - my aged body, responsibilities, parenthood to children that are not his, a small town where no one of his mind set hangs out, my routine vs. his spontaneity etc.).

Suprisingly enough, we do have lots in common. We like the same music (he likes some old stuff, I like some new stuff). We both love to dance (though in very different styles). We laugh and laugh. We like to hike, swim, compose music/lyrics together. We both love anime. We are both interested in the same spiritual concepts and lifestyle. And shortly, I will be mostly free of responsiblity to others, and that will allow us to follow our passion - traveling.

Anyway, I'm just amazed that it's real. I've known Jeremiah for just about 11 years now. We met in a chat room dedicated to this book we were both reading, and then met face to face a couple of years later. Then each of us spent years apart, in committed and faithful relationships. But we both wondered if we ever found ourselves both "available" at the same time, if we would reconnect. In the last three years, as I've hung out basically alone but playing the dating game, I would find my mind and heart wandering to Jeremiah, fantasizing about what it would like IF we were to reconnect. And then this Christmas, we exchanged pretty generic Christmas greetings that eventually turned into his suggestion that we visit. And the rest, as they say, is history (of us becoming)...

And I'm still amazed.


I am currently Amazed
I am listening to my girls chatter.