[018]
05/22/2007 10:06 p.m.

"and all i wanted to do was
put on my make up but --
for the life of me --
i couldn't stop crying."

i can't keep doing this.
no, seriously.
i can't keep digging my
hollow eyes into
the bones of my knees --
yours twice the protrusion --
and i can't keep telling you i love you
in return for --

all you see me for is --
i haven't kissed a man without
knowing it would --
not for months.
i haven't done anything of my own volition for months.

jealousy may be your favorite flavor
but it isn't mine.
and i don't like wearing threads
i haven't spun myself.

i don't cry for other men.
and i refuse to cry for you;
i loathe this game
and i am done.
I am currently Angry