Dream
03/21/2007 01:03 a.m.
I had another one about you.
Nothing special happened,
nothing ever does.
But I woke up,
and I felt this excruciating pain,
a more dreadful feeling than waking up from that nightmare
where I was held prisoner.
That one felt better
because I was not your captive.
Every dream about you is a nightmare.
Please stop it,
please take me back.
I could go on forever listing all
my pathetic woes,
stupid clichés
and cynical confessions...
but all I really want to say is
what hurts me the most
is that I woke up
and I realized how
goddamned much I miss you.

And I never even had you.
I am currently Blue