deviant septum and that issue.
12/17/2006 07:24 p.m.
no one's asked me what i want to do for a very long time. it seems that i'm always skating on someone else's ice. in doing so, i get bored and just walk off. everyone thinks that's me being antisocial or selfish. really, i just want to do what i want to do for once. i mention things, no one remembers. if they do remember, they don't particularly care. whenever i call someone with an idea, they've already got ideas for plans. they don't have actual plans. the mere notion of another plan--one that has nothing whatsoever to do with me and what i might want--is enough to make any consideration of my plans pointless. i don't know.


it's hard to wake up one day with things you want to do and not do them. everyday i wake up and tell myself that i'll have to go it alone, but i get lazy and i don't. i do something else, something to kill the time that i would've spent doing what it is i really wanted to do.


when do i wake up and make it the day that i'll act on my own accord?
I am currently Disillusioned
I am listening to movie movie movie