Closing escape routs: 23rd of august, 2006.
10/17/2006 03:46 a.m.






I am low in energies. The cause is obvious. I lack refined impressions, direct or in the form of 'shocks'.

When one is low, one tends to escape. Though there's hardly any place one can get away. We tend to surrender to happenings, escaping from the very presence of our own intending self.

And this is what I am doing. Letting things happen. Postponing every thing that I ought to undo in order to do.

Awareness of one's own predicament causes pain, a forced awareness. Intoxicated or sleeping souls don't feel this intentional pain.

I evaluate my state. I assess my strength rather weakness in my endeavor to auto suggest some positive suggestions but instead of any charge emanating from within, emerges negation and weakness. I am weak and I just want to escape.

A thought crosses my mind out of the blue. Rather a scene.

I see a ring and my opponent occupying it declaring his win.

Why do I have to escape from the scene treating my opponent stronger than me? Why can't I simply climb on the ring and just BE, letting him be, rejoicing in his win? As the rule of the game is that the quantum and the quality of your presence ensures refined energies which in turn ensures a WIN. I won't challenge him when I am weak. I won't wage a conflict with him, when I am weak. I will just occupy my rightful place in the ring and watch him rejoice if he can continue to do so despite my presence. My BEING shall ensure all those energy sources of all my opponents by virtue of my presence.

I am closing all the doors and windows providing any escape rout for my inevitable flight. I am feeling relieved.

I am currently Somber