I have decided to return to the basics: August 7th,2006.
10/15/2006 01:55 a.m.
……… But with a minor diviation. Instead of focusing on the action I shall now concentrate on undoing the negations in the course of my intended action, as the path from one action to another is so full of undesired happenings. I ought to UNDO these happenings, which includes 'stucking up', lethargy, distractions, mechanical thinking, day dreaming and reacting to external stimuli.

I am in the course of an ACTION and there manifests a desire to sit where as I have no purpose in sitting. I am not tired and I am wondering, why do I want to sit? This undoing of sitting wasn't enough as I see myself walking into my living room deviating from the intended action. Why am I here, I am perplexed. My mind is playing tricks. I needed to go to my living room for my brunch but this is not what I had intended. I was to comb my hair first and instead of combing my hair, I walked into my bed room, wanting to sit and now here I am, ( Was I really here?) undoing my undoing, walking into my living room. I need to do much more before I can have my brunch. I ought to keep some papers in my study, bring some back to my bedroom, as part of minor adjustment in the course of my practice of A to A ( action to action).



This desire to get stuck up any where and every where, any time and every time and be lost into nothingness is a peculiar tendency, a doing of Nature enforced by mainly five LAWS. If you add up to these lost hours, my my, it will add up to almost a life time on our scale of time. Is this doing of Nature? Yes, it always is, when YOU let things happen.

I ought to undo it, I keep on auto-suggesting and observe while undoing. I ought to keep focused on the intended action undoing the nature. Undoing will make me perform the intended action at a faster pace in the absence of any drift or waste. Yes, this saves energies. This increases the intake of energies. This also helps refined energies when one IS from moment to moment, from action to action, using all the 'shocks' engendered by refined impressions of the realizations and WINS.



I feel a little charged up as I de stuck my self from an external indulgence, I got into unintentionally as part of Natures doing. This extraction was a real WIN. And so far I have had four WINS to my credit.

These WINS bring me face to face with a realization that I am not so detached to my external. And I ought to imbue the sense of meaninglessness in the meaning the external provides in all the happening and beliefs. This alone will enable me to WALK IN and BE and help me UNDO in the process of DOING.

I taste yet another WIN in the shape of another work I did externally, I was avoiding, necessary for my organized external living, but time consuming. Oh! Yet another, in the shape of ACTIVE THINKING. I entrusted (after a little tricking and coaxing) a time consuming but necessary work to my wife. I am thinking ACTIVELY.



To be or not to be is an struggle between your endeavor to extract your self from indulging your self from the meaninglessness of the external world, detaching your self from all that is happening surrounding you that occurs every moment owing to the LAW of ACCIDENT only because you let the Nature make you play the passive role, unknowingly or meekly, We must turn the table, switching our role from that of PASSIVE to ACTIVE, breaking the chain of cause and effect, but causing yet another chain. We must keep on breaking these chain, not letting our past affect our present.



The whole process of UNDOING is like gathering YOUR pieces, we so unintentionally scatter, in a sense.




I am currently Reflective