I Practice a State of Thoughtlessness
09/04/2006 05:27 p.m.

August 5th,2006

As a very important part of my practice, from A to A, I decided to focus on undoing mechanical thought processes in my endeavor to attain a state of complete thoughtlessness. It's not a blank state of mind nor do I want it to be passive. It is an active thoughtlessness wherein the 'sensing' intensifies four times and so does the intake of energies which shall refine with the continued 'shock' provided by NOTIME.

What am I without refined energies? A chained pet of mother nature?

A state of thoughtlessness is a state of timelessness because it's mainly the thoughts that keep us stuck to a linear time. In the absence of Time we are in NOTIME in the region of awareness at large, the one and the only known source of refined energies. With all our SENSING intact and AWARE, the state of thoughtlessness transports us to this region, linking our awareness with the AWARENESS AT LARGE. KNOWING is what emerges wordless with a sense of confidence and a belief that we were always in the know. The quality of KNOWING is proportionate to the quantum and quality of energies which is proportionate to the quality of BEING. One can SEE this either way…

…but with a minor deviation. Instead of focusing on the action I shall now concentrate on undoing the negations in the course of my intended action, as the path from one action to another is so full of undesired happenings. I ought to UNDO these happenings, which include 'sticking up', lethargy, distractions, mechanical thinking, daydreaming, and reacting to external stimuli.

I am in the course of an ACTION and there manifests a desire to sit whereas I have no purpose in sitting. I am not tired and I am wondering, “why do I want to sit?” This undoing of sitting wasn't enough as I see myself walking into my living room deviating from the intended action. “Why am I here?” - I am perplexed. My mind is playing tricks. I needed to go to my living room for my brunch, but this is not what I had intended. I was to comb my hair first and instead of combing my hair I walked into my bedroom wanting to sit, and now here I am (was I really here?) undoing my undoing, walking into my living room. I need to do much more before I can have my brunch. I ought to keep some papers in my study and bring some back to my bedroom as part of minor adjustment in the course of my practice of A to A (action to action).

This desire to get stuck up anywhere and everywhere, any time and every time and to be lost in nothingness is a peculiar tendency, a doing of Nature enforced mainly by five LAWS. If you add up these lost hours, my my, it will add up to almost a lifetime on our scale of time. Is this the doing of Nature? Yes, it always is, when YOU let things happen. “I ought to undo it,” I keep on auto suggesting and observing while undoing. I ought to keep focused on the intended action undoing the nature. Undoing will make me perform the intended action at a faster pace in the absence of any drift or waste. Yes, this saves energies. This increases the intake of energies. This also helps refined energies when one IS from moment to moment, from action to action, using all the 'shocks' engendered by refined impressions of the realizations and WINS.

I feel a little charged up as I de-stick myself from an external indulgence I got into unintentionally as part of Nature’s doing. This extraction was a real WIN, and so far I have had four WINS to my credit.

These WINS bring me face to face with a realization that I am not so detached to my external, and I ought to imbue the sense of meaninglessness in the meaning the external provides in all the happening and beliefs. This alone will enable me to WALK IN and BE, helping me UNDO in the process of DOING.

I taste yet another WIN in the shape of more work I do externally that I was avoiding though necessary for my organized external living, but time consuming. Oh! Yet another UNDOING in the shape of ACTIVE THINKING. I entrusted (after a little tricking and coaxing) a time consuming but necessary work to my wife. I am thinking ACTIVELY.

To be or not to be is a struggle between your endeavor to extract yourself from indulging yourself from the meaninglessness of the external world, detaching your elf from all that is happening surrounding you that occurs every moment owing to the LAW of ACCIDENT only because you let the Nature make you play the passive role, unknowingly or meekly. We must turn the table, switching our role from that of PASSIVE to ACTIVE, breaking the chain of cause and effect, but causing yet another chain. We must keep on breaking these chain, not letting our past effect our present.

In a sense, the whole process of UNDOING is like gathering YOUR pieces, so unintentionally scattered.