I Am Returning to A Now
09/04/2006 03:59 p.m.

July 4th, 2006

Drift, indulgence, and postponement are the three main culprits that make us postpone living. One tends to drift and indulge in dreams or in happenings without caring to balance the cost with the purpose. One tends to postpone making a decision, always imagining it done in the days to come.

But this day never arrives. The decision is never made. The work is never accomplished. Years pass by and we keep on postponing and justifying all the happenings as if these were our doings, and we do project them as our doings.

My priority is A and I hardly return to it, moving from happening B to C and so on, justifying my movements. How can I justify my movements from B to Z when my top priority, my own resolve, is A? I can be justified in justifying my failure if I had done my utmost to attain A and failed in the wake of my external, putting B and C and D in my way. I can justify my non-performance if only I had done my best to un-barricade. But I don't. On the contrary I indulge, I postpone, I dream of the accomplishment.

What do I do?

The only answer is to return to A from all the happenings that drag you away. Struggle and come back. Come back to A.

I am returning to A now.