I Am Happy Only WHEN I AM
08/27/2006 01:26 a.m.

June 20th, 2006

The first thought that hit me today, (for the thousandth time,) was that I am happy only WHEN I AM. There has to be an “I” in AMNESS to feel, to sense, to see and to control the mind from drifting. Only if I AM, am I in control. The happiness or unhappiness is also in control.

Thoughts play a vital role. They drift in dead times, assume and make us anxious and unhappy. Millions of people suffer all their lives just because of some assumed thought. This sounds idiotically tragic. WE should use the thoughts rather than the thoughts using US. It's US who should think, and not the thought that should think us.

But the whole tragedy is that we will let the thoughts maul us rather than using their power. We should choose a thought and draw energies from the very impression of the thought.
Those millions of people are mauled just by a thought, and they don't know how to undo these sadistic thoughts.

Happiness has to be our own doing. I remember a Buddhist definition of the essence of self control, “'To control the eye is good; to control the ear is good; to control the nose is good; to control the tongue is good; to control the body is good; to control the speech is good; to control the mind is good; good is control on every side. A Bhikku (monk) who is thus controlled on every side is freed from every suffering.”

Well, I just want to add that it should be the intending I of the Bhikku in control, and WHEN I AM, there is a controller.