Currents
08/11/2006 05:08 p.m.
Do you ever feel that the world is so confusing that the best part of it is just to walk alone on broken sidewalks. Lately its been haunting my dreams and thoughts about how we can all dream for better things but the hardest part are the chances we are not given. I saw a girl today, and maybe if I had the courage I could win her heart. But tragically why bother when she does not show an interest in me. They say that true love never exists, but they say that because they never felt it. Its seeing a person for the first time and wanting to know them. It doesn't matter if they are scared or broken, but truly wanting to see what colors they enjoy or music they soak up.

I wish I could experience that again, but my time is nearly up. Before you say time is never up, and that it will come. It hasn't come in 7 years it won't happen again. I am not the childish fool I was when I was younger. Love is gone, but I can deal with that. Its the dreams and ambitions that tear my soul. To accomplish so much, but never get the chance to do it. That is pure hell and torment for me. All the people around have a chance, but I'm different I suppose. Maybe I am a failure like my father said when I was a youth. Who knows, but I will continue to swim against the current even how much the current is ripping me apart.