RELIVING the past: an exercise to feel light
04/30/2006 03:22 p.m.

April 13th, 2006

All kinds of mechanical thinking of an emotional nature, incessant dreaming, nightmares causing restlessness during sleep, and sudden attacks of fear without any visible cause are normally owed to shattered hopes, repressed hatred, and unpleasant memories. There are so many of these unpleasant memories in our system that they tend to appear every now and then owing to their association with the objects, persons, and places in our external, generating emotional energies with a negative charge, making us either indulge in emotionalism or repression. In either case, we succeed in repressing them, not living those moments intellectually and analyzing them. This repression or not SEEING them by RELIVING those moments makes them appear in the form of dreams, nightmares, and fear. This makes our lives, our Beings too heavy, too burdensome. These repressed memories create a tension within, causing this heaviness. Many times our bodies express these unpleasant memories psychosomatically.

In order to feel light, sleep soundly, deeply, and to improve the quality of our mind and Being, one must neutralize these emotions by RELIVING those moments of hatred, fear, suppressed desires, and shattered hopes intellectually and intentionally, in every detail, analyzing every aspect of those events stored as unpleasant memories.

How does one approach this exercise and start RELIVING these memories filled with so much of negativity? One can start from anywhere but one should do so, in an orderly manner. Following, I am suggesting a way:

1. Draw a list from your past of all such events that can and do cause fear, hatred, and negative feelings.

2. Draw a list of all the persons you have met in your life. Recollect and RELIVE every unpleasant moment you have spent with them.

3. Draw a list of all the places you have lived right from your childhood up until the present time and RELIVE every unpleasant event you can recollect, piece by piece.

Remember, you are not to ignore a single detail of a person or a place or an event. You must SEE yourself reliving in every detail. You must watch yourself experiencing this experience once again, but intellectually and intentionally . YOU are not supposed to indulge. You are to experience yourself indulging, separating your self from your self.

Besides, breathing slow and deep is advisable while you are engaged in this exercise.